This week marks another square dance anniversary for me, 13 to be exact, and I keep thinking back to how it all started. What was supposed to be something simple – learn a few calls, try something new, meet some new people – turned into something that quietly reshaped a lot more of my life than I expected.
Square dancing has a funny way of doing that.
At its core, it’s eight people trying to move together without crashing into each other, guided by a caller who’s already three steps ahead of everyone else. Some nights it flows like it’s second nature. Other nights it’s controlled chaos held together by timing, laughter, and the collective decision to just keep going.
I’ve had both. Plenty of both.
I’ve made mistakes – some small, some that felt very noticeable in the moment – and I’ve had those nights where you just have to laugh and reset because there’s no elegant way out of what just happened. I’ve also had the nights where everything clicks, and for a few tips you feel like you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be.
And somewhere in all of that, I stayed.
What I didn’t expect was how much this would change me outside the dance floor, too. Walking into a room of people you don’t fully know and having to move, respond, trust, and be part of something bigger than yourself isn’t always easy. But over time, it becomes familiar. Then comfortable. Then something you actually look forward to.
It gave me a place to show up as I am, without overthinking it the way I so often do. A place where the structure of the dance gives you something to hold onto, and the people around you makes it feel a lot less intimidating than it once did.
That part matters more than I ever thought it would.
And recently, something I didn’t expect has come back into my life in a new way: calling.
Rekindling calling has been both exciting, a little humbling and very scary. There’s a different kind of pressure when you’re the one guiding the floor – thinking ahead, reading reactions, adjusting in real time while still trying to sound calm and confident. It stretches a different part of my brain, and honestly, it’s been pulling me back in all over again.
It feels like rediscovering something I didn’t realize I’d put down.
And through all of it, the best part is still the people. The ones who laugh when things go sideways. The ones who don’t make mistakes feel like mistakes. The ones who show up week after week and make this whole strange, beautiful system work.
That kind of community is rare.
So today isn’t just an anniversary of learning square dance calls. It’s an anniversary of sticking with something long enough for it to become part of me. Of growing into spaces I used to hesitate in. Of finding confidence in motion, in rhythm, and in being surrounded by people moving in the same direction.
I don’t know what this next year will look like – on the floor or behind the mic – but I know I’m still here. Still learning. Still showing up.
And still a little surprised at how much I’ve come to love all of it.
See you in a square!








